Michigan for Thanksgiving

Ahhhh I am so conflicted about going back to Michigan for Thanksgiving. It's going to be a terrible drive and it will probably take us 10 plus hours to do. It already snowed here and we knew that was going to happen. I really want to see Jack's mom and my family and all of Jack's family but something for some reason is now holding me back. Why am I so conflicted?! How is it that I was so sure I wanted to go yesterday and now today I feel like I have a big lump in my throat just thinking about going? Is it the drive? Is it his family?

Is it that I'm worried that things have been so good what if something wrecks it?

I'm worried about the dogs, last time we brought Bessie to their house, their dog viciously attacked our puppy. Bessie will never go there again or ever be around those dogs again. I don't want it questioned, I don't want to think about it. I don't want to talk about it.

I'm worried that something will happen that will set us back again.

I'm worried that his parents won't stop trying to talk Jack into buying a $13,000.00 crate motor for a car that they refuse to sign into his name because I'm his wife.

I'm just flat out worried.

maybe it was a bad idea to think we could go, I'm really stressing out.



In other great news, I lost a pound. It's been a long time since I've been able to take off even a pound, most of the time when I diet, I gain weight. So I am super motivated after seeing the scale this morning to keep the scale moving in that direction. 1 down, 49 pounds go to!! I can do this!