When it rains it really does pour. (take 2304092834)

I know that at some point in my life God will use all of these horrible experiences for good in some way or another.

We are having even more IL issues.

And we got a check in the mail from the JL's grandparents' estate.

My sister called today to tell me that they gave my Grandpa one week to live. I don't even know what to say about it. I feel so blank. I just don't have any emotions to add into all of these crazy things that have been going on lately....




April 2007 - Grandma H. (pancreatic cancer)
June 2007 - we got engaged
August 2007 - Papa L. (died of a botched pacemaker)
September 2007 - Great Granny (heart attack)
November 2007 - We got married
February 2008 - We moved to Wisconsin
August 2008 - JL's Grandpa T. (pancreatic cancer)
August 2008 - JL's Gma's Cousin (car accident)
September 2008 - My Aunt (liver failure)
September 2008 - JL's Grandma T. (two strokes right after gpa T died.)
now my Grandpa.

Email my Aunt sent out this morning:
Good morning,
Dad has been breathing hard for a few days.
the nurse came in this morning.
she said he is not doing well. He could quit breathing at any time.
He is dehydrated and she could not draw blood.
she suggested hospice and said he may have a week.
Blood would not benefit him and would only prolong the process. He would not even tolerate the ride to the hospital.
He is making comments about wanting to go fast and said OK Fernie, I'm coming"
Thank you for your prayers!
marlene

(Fernie is what my Grandpa called my Grandma who passed away in April 2007.)

I haven't heard that name in so long. I miss my Grandma so much. I am so happy I got to go visit with my Grandpa two weeks ago and that we didn't skip that. I'm so happy for all the time and happy memories I have with all of my loved ones, I've been extremely blessed.

I know God will give us the strength to go through this as we have all of the other losses in our families.

I have also decided to stop temping and to just give up on all that. I'm sick of all this. I'm trying to control things that I have absolutely no control over. God has been telling me for a long time that I am not in control of the things that are happening in this life, and I know that. I know it will happen when and if it is supposed to in His time. I can't rush it or slow it down.